4:46am

long night in the recording studio again,hate them.for the sleazy rock'n'roll music we produce to be recorded in such a sterile enviroment is kinda ironic,engineers watching our every move making sure we don't cut up lines of coke on anything we shouldn't.back home with my girls now smoking heroin trying to come down.not sure if my body knows what the hell is going on.

heroin #3

the u.k is going through the worst heroin drought in 30 years,as the record company keep telling me now is a good time to get it out of my system,go to rehab.fuck that,they're intent on sending me to sleep for 12 days and when or if i wake up i should be clean.i like junk,there is nothing better,i'm not trying to sell the idea to anyone people have to make their own lives,i don't drink alcohol or smoke marijuana etc.junk has always been my thing,i don't hurt anyone.i appreciate i cause my girls to worry sometimes when i don't answer the phone but sometimes i'm just unable to answer it i don't do it deliberately.meant to be playing glastonbury festival in june,if there is one festival a person should attend it's glasty,over 100'000 people partying for close on a week.one of those places where you never want to sleep and they have music from all across the spectrum.strange flying onto the place these days in a helicopter,i used to go a few years ago by car and it was excellent,20-25 of us in vw campers,jeeps and some hitched a ride as most festival goers are on the same wavelength and happy to help others,some aren't but you can see them a mile off and they are a minority.thinking of going back to madrid for a few days as some of the worlds truly great museums are located there,prado,reina sofia where picassos guernica is exhibited.salvador dali the photographs of robert capa.madrid has been good to me

ART              HEROIN            SEX                  DEATH

twin addictions

heroin.a life without it is beyond me.been too long now.no heroin i'm cold physically and emotionally.got heroin the coolest person in the world,other peoples words not mine.so i'm a fucking mess to be concise.play guitar for other people when i'm well and need the $$$,got $$$ fuck everybody just leave me alone with my girls,who by the way take nothing,marijuana when they can't sleep which is usually down to me being awake for days at a time and making lots of noise.fuck i'm great to live with.heroin & girls,story of my life.off to get loaded and hit the city.1500 people to play for.going to need some junk in my veins for this but not to much that i zone out and start playing my stuff and not theirs.